DONT GIVE UP ON ME

Hey guys!

Please dont give up on me! It's mega hard to blog without a freaking computer ahhh!
Living in LA is amazing though, ( i just need a j.o.b )

If you miss me terrible though follow me on Twitter! & you can talk to me alllll day long.

=)

I really miss blogging but as soon as I can afford a MAC, im back!

IM IN LOS ANGELES!!!!!

God is sooooo good to me.

I made it here! I've been talkin about it, prayin about it, dreamin about it.. and now yours truly is in LA BABY!.

It's amazing, it's great. It's everything I've dreamed of. I havent got out to see much but so far I've been to Santa Monica and Venice beach, drove around west LA. hit up a sushi spot that was amazing... moved into my apartment. met my amazing room mates... things are good.

Noooow, i just have to worry about gettin a computer because i cant blog if i dont have that!!!1 ughhh. I CAN check comments and emails though so make sure to comment down below and email me at t.nicoledesigns@gmail.com. You can also follow me on twitter @supercooltnicki!

If any of you know anyone selling a macbook or a imac for an inexpensive price by chance PLEASE hit me up. thanks!!!

(if u're sellin one for free u REALLY need to hit me up lol)

Love u guys!

So long Detroit...Helloooo LA

I did it! I'm finally on my way to California. (Next Thursday) So where does this leave my blog? Where does this leave the SuperCoolChronicles?...

Don't worry, I've got some things in the works just to keep it all exciting for me. I'm definitely going to be writing more.. whenever I save up enough bucks to get a mac....

This was just a QLB (quick lil blog) to let you all know the amazing news! Your prayers and motivation have helped more than you know!

I'll be back next week when things settle down!

Welcome me BACK!

I've come to realize that when you stop stressing the things you can't change and just pray (for those who have faith in prayer) a lot of things start to happen for you.

My last post was a direct cry for help for I was literally breaking completely down. I couldn't even keep control of where my thoughts were going. Yes, it was that serious. So I started to just pray 10 times as more than usual. I mean like praying as I walk down the stairs... praying as I put my load of clothes in my washer machine.. Praying while I took a morning piss lol...

Now my security deposit is paid, my ticket is paid for.. & a good good friend is helping me buy all my necessary items to move. Everything is being taken care of and I am SO blessed. so so so so so blessed.

Not only was I stressing about money issues though, I was also worried about my dad and lil sister and how they were taking me leaving. My sister acts like she doesnt care but 9/10 she'll cry her eyes out the day I leave lol My dad is JUST now starting to show his support for my decision and that means a lot to me because he's putting so much effort into helping me with this move to California and my decision to go to school there instead of here. Before, he really wasnt much help in the support area when I made huge decisions with my life. It kind of sucks that it took something like this (moving across the country) to make him "be there" more.. but right now I'm just glad he's happy for me ...

Well. I'm officially back... unstressed... smiling.. laughing.. joke cracking..twitter addicted, SuperCool Tnicki....

#hateonmehaters. lmao.

NVERUOS FKICUNG BKREDAWON

Okay. So.. It took me about 30 minutes to actually type something in this box to let you guys know how I'm feeling.

Why did it take so long (?) ... Cause I was too busy being a punk bitch & crying my chink eyes out.

so.. as y'all know, I've been getting ready to move to California for school in October. & I've been talking about this all year. My heart & soul is set on this move. So about a month ago, I was told I wouldnt be able to get housing because I was short about $12k for the apartments that are disbursed through the school. So I panick cause my dream got snatched from up underneath my feet so fast. You know the trick where someone yanks the tablecloth but the dishes are all still in tact?.. That's how it was.. except I felt like I broke into a million little tiny pieces.

And when I thought I was at my lowest point.. my cousin came through and said you know what, you can stay with me. I was too fucking happy. Y'all dont understand what I've gone through to get to California. Y'all just don't know. So when she told me that, I was like alright bet. What do I have to do?.. So we've been discussing the terms back & forth via email. & she's telling me I'ma have rules and blah blah blah.. mind you, I'm fuckin 20 years old.. grown ass woman.. paying bills & shit.. but because I want soooo badly to move to California.. I'm like whatever.. I'm down for it.. whatever!

Today.. she tells me.. she wan'ts not $100 but $250/month.. & I don't even get a fuckin room. I get to sleep on a got damn sofa bed. On top of that.. I have to pay that same amount in train fair.. every month.. THEN i also have to pay $36 every month for bus fare.. Then of course I have to have pocket money, expense money, money for food.. money money money.. & it just dawned on me. I don't have a fuckin job there... I wont have a computer so I cant work for myself.. & I only have about $217 in my bank account.. and about $72 in my wallet.

I just realized.. I've been paying my own tuition outta fuckin pocket for 3 years almost with no fuckin no steady income.. also been payin bills for the home my dad gave me to live in with my lil sister... & so I don't have much money saved.. Yeah y'all.. I realized I was broke as shit...

So here I am.. 20 years old.. moving across the fuckin country.. with $289 to my name. Who does that stupid shit? Who? I realized that the plan I constructed for myself.. was based around having that student housing and when that fell through.. every single shred of my original fell through right along with it.

& it was at that very moment, when I broke into tears. I have not cried in forever! .. I have not felt so helpless in my entire life. I briefly spoke with my bestfriend and she said "bff i wish i could help you".. & I couldn't say anything but "I wish I could help myself". I'm very independent & it kills my heart to know I can't provide for myself.

So that's it.. stop the show.. turn back around.. stay in Michigan. Oh wait.. can't do that, then I'll be in $30,000+ in debt. That's an even worse situation.. & when I realize that.. I cry even harder. Helpless. Fucking helpless..

I'm sorry y'all if this blog is like.. ridiculous and rambling, and dissheveled but I'm just trying to get these thoughts out and as I write them they make me feel even more like shit so I'm gonna stop here and...

Wasted Sexy

You ever been in your sexiest of moods but have no one to live out the sexy with?



Well... since I'm bleeding out like the Nile River right now, I'm not feeling the sexy at this moment but the other day I was! I had this brand new bra & panties set from Vicki's Secret & it was all soft and supportive & my booty was lookin all delightful & I just thought I was too scrumptious...



It was at that moment as I stared into the mirror that I realized well damn..."ALL'LIS SESSY GON GO TO WASTE NICKI" ... damn. One night of sexy gone down the drain. DAYUM! Lmao.



Seriously though, sometimes I just wanna be touched. ... by someone other than myself. Lol. Don't get me wrong I DO actually enjoy being single simply because I've accomplished SO much when I'm single as opposed to being in a relationship. Relationships take time & work & I'm already overworked & underpaid. Lol.



If I could just skip over all the dating, and the falling in love & get right to the hot steamy intimacy.. hugs.. meaningful kisses & all that sexy shit.. I'd be good.



Sure I could go out & find em fuck em & flee em but sex means more & is a hell of a lot better when it's not JUST sex ya know? ...



I'm just mad that I spent all that money on underwear & didn't nobody see em but me.



& possibly my next door neighbor through the window. Gotta get those curtains back up!

An ORIGINAL SuperCool Chronicle....

I know, I know. I suck. I'm aware of my absence. Won't even give you an excuse but I will say.. life's hard, so fuck it & live that bitch! Lol.

I've got a lot to discuss with you all today. (By the way I see I've gotten some more followers.. damn, yall really rock out for that) First let me say how much I really do love my blog cause it is a direct virtual reflection of who I genuinely am.

Just to let y'all know my lil sister turned 16 on August 23rd & I announced it on twitter. Like, no b.s 300+ ppl wished my sister a happy 16th birthday. Her nerd ass was happy about that, so if you were one of them THANK YOU!...

I don't feel the need to OD on talking about celebrities, fashion and other bullshit that so many of us like to get caught up in. I love my blog cause it's at LEAST 95% Artavia'Nicole (me). I get so personal with you guys that sometimes I have to sit back and just say... "wow, I'm too real with this one" Lol. It's true. I'm not the type of person who wears their heart out on their sleeves, so for me to tell you the things that I do is a pretty big deal for me.

The next thing I wanted to say was... I'm like... a dork or something because I think it's so cool that 56 of you actually like reading my madness. Like, y'all really do read it and it makes me happy to know that.. I made someone smile if even for 2 seconds, or that someone could relate. That lil simple shit is what makes me appreciate you guys reading my blog. & for that, I'm gettin my blog shit together honey! Lol.

Okay! So let me get to the nitty gritty. All y'all know that I started this blog to log the details of my journey in moving to California. WELL.. a couple weeks ago my dreams were snatched right up from underneath my feet. No loans, no scholarships, no money, no move.. NO SCHOOL. So I was hurt. Couldn't stop crying, didn't know what to do, tweeting like a motherfucker but not tweetin shit at the same time! lmao. My soul was crumbling within me and I could literally feel my heart weakening. I swear, I've been to the ER like 3 times within the last 2 weeks about chest pains. (which no one knew about but my dad) So yeah... my life was pretty much falling apart in front of my eyes.

After about a week or so of crying I didn't know what I was going to do but I knew I was going to make it to California. I had worked TOO hard to stop now you know?.. So I made some jokes on twitter & facebook basically saying something like ... "Can someone in or around LA let me crash their crib for a while.. I pay you with love & graphic design work for 6 months lmao" just jokes ya know?... Then my cousin (who lives an hr away from LA) sent me a text saying "cuz, why didnt you just let me know you needed a place to stay? i'm in detroit now and I'll come over to discuss the details"

I won't go into it all, but basically.. my cousin is a down ass bitch. Lol. She saved my education guys. And now that I don't have to pay for housing guess what... I DON'T NEED ANYMORE MONEY.. so everything school wise is paid for. All I need now is my plane ticket & to prepare myself for a major lifestyle change.

I've been waiting for so long. I've been preparing for this moment & it's finally coming true. What I learned in this last month is.. God laughs at you when you think YOU'RE the one making plans. I'm not religious at all, but I do know God truly has my back. He knows what's best for me & he made things go this way to help me in the end.